Weight-loss Arggggggg

January 2nd and I’m back on my weight loss plan for the 100th time. Losing weight and keeping it off, mostly keeping it off  has been a huge struggle of mine that started when I hit my late 20’s. Believe it or not until then my nickname was “String bean.”

I hardly gained any weight with all my pregnancies( only gained 3 pounds with my last one) but I would gain like crazy after. While pregnant I had to eat like a diabetic and with the last two of four pregnancies, I had to give myself shots in my stomach and thighs. So once off I went crazy to make up for lost time. The problem isn’t the food: the problem is I’m a pain eater.

I have been in pain since I started getting migraines at the age of 17; I’m 56 now. I actually pulled a muscle in my back at age 10 playing kickball and had back pains ever since. As the years have gone on, the pain in my body has increased. Not one day goes by that I’m not in pain. Everything hurts from my toes to my head.I don’t talk much about it (until today). I just live one day at a time. But because I keep it to myself, I eat my pain.

I’ve decided to use Medifast as my weight loss plan and have a group I’m part of…well off and on hahahahaha. Medifast has always worked for me in the losing of weight but I struggle in the maintenance part. By March of last year I was down 80 + pounds and decided to change to another plan. Bad decision! I need to learn to stay the coarse. I have a love/hate relationship with Medifast.

I also have an accountability partner, who I will be in contact with every day. We will be encouraging each other with what God give us each day in our daily devotions and setting weekly goals.

One of my favorite scripture is Psalms 81:10 I am the Lord your God,
    who brought you up out of the land of Egypt.
    Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it.  I use it for everything from spiritual growth to weight loss.

Well, today as I was reading it again the Lord prompted me to read on…….oh ouch! It kind of smarted a bit.
11“But My people would not listen to My voice,
And Israel did not [consent to] obey Me.
12 “So I gave them up to the stubbornness of their heart,
To walk in [the path of] their own counsel.

He was showing me how I allow food to counsel me in my pain rather than relying on His word to comfort me. He says if I open my mouth wide, He will fill it. He will fill it with His word. I need to feed on His word rather than food. I need to allow Him to kiss me with the kisses of His word (SOS chapter 1) because what he gives me is better then what the world has to offer.

Ps 81 goes on to say, “ 
13“Oh, that My people would listen to Me,
That Israel (insert your own name) would walk in My ways!
14 “Then I would quickly subdue and humble their enemies
And turn My hand against their adversaries;

I’ve been relying on food for so long to ease my pain (really..it only adds to it). When my focus is on the Lord, overeating (my adversary, my enemy) is defeated. I always start my weight-loss strong and in the word but somewhere along the way…I lose myself and the patterns repeat. I need to keep listening even when I reach my goal because for me goal is just a beginning not an end. It’s just another beginning.

And finally
16“But I would feed Israel (insert your name) with the finest of the wheat;
And with honey from the rock I would satisfy you.”

That’s His promise! If I would listen and stay focused, He would be my comfort and even my healer. Wheat reminds me that he is the bread of life. John 6:35 Jesus replied to them, “I am the Bread of Life. The one who comes to Me will never be hungry, and the one who believes in Me [as Savior] will never be thirsty [for that one will be sustained spiritually].

Honey represents what is happy, pleasant, and delightful. Everything I need to cope and/feel better comes from Him, not man, not me.

So food you will no longer be my counselor! I’m moving on to better things!

Planning For Your Fast

January is the month that most churches across the country begin 21 days of fasting and prayer  with a purposeful focus  on God. Some begin the first day of the year, and others choose a few days later or even a week after. Fasting and praying allows us the opportunity to humble ourselves before the Lord and seek what He wants for us personally and corporately as a church.

This is my favorite time of year to fast. I used to dread fasting but God took me on an amazing spiritual journey many years ago which changed my whole outlook on fasting. Now I look for opportunities to fast and pray!!! My church will begin our corporate fast on Jan 9th! Have you ever seen that commercial where the woman is standing outside the door of a store saying, “Open…open…open”? She can hardly wait to get inside and start shopping. Well that’s me right now. I’m so excited; I might have to start a little earlier!!!

In My book Breaking Through To Higher Places at the end of chapter four, I lay out 9 questions to help you prepare for your fast.

  1. What type of fast will you do?
  2. If you are eating things, what will those things be?
  3. How long will you be on your fast?
  4. What will you do when you get hungry?
  5. When will you spend time in the Word?
  6. What events are coming up that could be a hindrance to your plan?
  7. Write down how you will handle each of them?
  8. How will you handle your fast at meal times for those in your family who aren’t fasting with you?
  9. Name at least three people you can make yourself accountable to, to help you succeed.

I encourage you to write these down and answer them before going into your fast. You might even have questions you might want to add. Having a plan will help you succeed. When we make a plan and stick to it, then we are free to spend time with the Lord without things getting in the way. And trust me, distractions come in all forms!

I always plan out my fast because I am eagerly awaiting and encounter with God. With a plan in motion, I am free to taste and see that the Lord is good!