I love fasting. It’s hard though because everything I fast, I find myself wanting really bad those first three or four days. This year I prayed and asked God what HE wanted me to fast this time. I embarrassed to say, I should have always asked that but if I’m honest, I chose what I wanted. And every fast has been amazing even though I chose but this time I just wanted Him to direct me. So for every day I just prayed and believed He directed and put together a fasting Calendar. And on the second day, I could feel it! And it’s a good feeling.
I found the worst fast in the world for me to do is the Daniel Fast because sure I’m sacrificing certain foods and trust me: it’s a sacrifice cause I love meat and sugar, but I was still eating all day. And most of my time was spent in the kitchen cooking approved Daniel Fast Meals which took me away from my time in the word and just sitting and listening. Not that I won’t ever do that one again, it’s a great fast, but next time I will be wiser. Another thing is I don’t feel the Daniel Fast.
This time I truly wanted to feel this fast. I wanted to feel the hunger pangs and the headaches to remind me why I am doing this and Who’s connection and revelation I am seeking.
Now don’t get me wrong cause I am always in extended times in the Word when I fast, but there’s just something about that hunger pang that keeps me there and thinking about Him all day. It reminds me constantly why I am doing this and that I am expecting to have things downloaded into my spirit and words and promises for the future. He has never let me down. It reminds me that He talks to me in my pain and He will be for me “the bread of life”.
Yesterday He spoke to me about two things…(it always takes me a whole day to write it out haha)
1. Not to run tapes through my head about what I’m going to say but to trust Him to give me a mouth and wisdom. ‘
2. To stay awake, praying.
Luke 21:14-15 13 This will be your opportunity to bear witness. 14 Settle it therefore in your minds not to meditate beforehand how to answer, 15 for I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which none of your adversaries will be able to withstand or contradict.
Jesus is foretelling about the wars and persecution to come and how to handle it and it just hit me that this is great advice for living. How many times do we go through the tapes in our mind, rehearsing what we’re going to say, mostly in our anger, hurt or pain? What if through the trials, we just prayed and asked God what to say and waited for His wisdom to speak through our mouths.
I recently went through this and had to stop myself several times from rehearsing what I was going to say to a person who hurt me. I never realized just how hard that is to do. Every time a thought (or a few ) came to mind I would stop and pray and ask God for a mouth and wisdom. One thing I discovered is that if we quit rehearsing and running tapes, the problem isn’t as big as we thought it was and our words cause less damage if no damage at all because we are speaking with His wisdom, not our anger. That’s why we’re told to be slow to anger.
Proverbs 14:29 Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly.
The Lord promises that our adversaries (or those who hurt or come against us) won’t be able to withstand or contradict us. and this will be an opportunity to bear witness to the truth, love, and good news of our Lord. This is huge!
The second little nugget He gave me is found
Luke 21:36 (ESV) 36 But stay awake at all times, praying that you may have strength to escape all these things that are going to take place, and to stand before the Son of Man.”
Prayer isn’t’ just for when we go through hard times. We are told to stay awake. To me, this means: look for opportunities to pray. Be aware of what’s going on around you. We need to walk in His strength, not our fear. We need to “see it coming’ and not be caught off guard.
In this chapter, Jesus is telling them to see that they are not lead astray…He’s telling them to look for the signs. and not to be afraid. I think this is true of everyday life. He’s constantly showing us things, or speaking through other people, or whispering in our ear, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.
The scripture tells us the devil wants to kill and destroy us. His greatest weapon is deception and if he can catch us napping, he gains a foothold. We don’t have to see him around every corner but if we stay alert and pray we will have the strength to get through every trial and temptation and have the abundant life God has promised us!
Onward to day three………….Many Blessings!!