I started my weight loss journey in April of 2018….Or should I say my millionth attempt at weight loss? At this moment I am down 17 pounds. This is the slowest I have ever lost on a weight loss plan but it’s one that I have to say I enjoy the most. I’m enjoying cooking so much that I’ve probably in three months cooked almost half of the recipes in my cookbook. I have three cookbooks. I’m trying things I never would have tried before and opening up a new world of tastes to me. Who knew that you could bake desserts with white beans, black beans, spinach, and okra. You couldn’t have paid me to even look at okra in the past.
I’ve been off of processed sugars and fake sugars for three months. Did I say I have…had a sugar addiction. I now use stevia which is a plant-based sweetener. It took a little to get used to the aftertaste but I don’t even know the difference now.
I am also off of white bread, white potatoes, and white rice. I think the hardest thing to give up was pizza but thank God there’s cauliflower pizza and I love it!. I also have yet to try the pizza recipe in my cookbook. I’ve been going in order from front to back with the recipes. Don’t ask….it’s just how I roll.
So how do I know I’m in it to win it? Since starting this weight loss plan, I have been in pain from some severe things going on in my neck. It started on my right side in my shoulder and shoulder blade. I went to see a Dr and he did an MRI on my neck. Much to my surprise, it was my left side that was in bad shape. The miracle was I wasn’t experiencing any discomfort or pain on that side. My Dr. was puzzled. Well that all changed two weeks ago and then I learned what level 14 type of pain was. It’s right up there with birth and kidney stones. Some days I want to put my fist through the wall; it hurts so bad.
I also lost my little Jackie (schnauzer dog)of 15 years last week. Watching him have seizures on top of my pain was killing me. That dog went through so much with our bigger dogs. We always thought he had nine lives and would outlive us. I have cried for days.
My daughter and her husband have moved across the States and my youngest and his wife will be joining them in the fall. I won’t see my daughter leading worship anymore and it kind of hurts but I am so happy for her.
I’ve also lost my dreams. I’m kind of at a place of not knowing what God has for my life. Only four months ago I had incredible visions only to watch them slip away from me. I’m sitting here with this huge mountain in front of me not knowing whether to climb it, go around it or make it go away. I’m totally open for whatever God wants me to do. I just don’ t know what that is.
in the midst of all of this, I have never cheated or wavered off plan. I have stayed focused and not even felt the need to eat off plan. I am/have been a pain and emotional eater and here I am sticking with this plan that I am totally on board with. I have no desire to go back to sugar eating which has always been my narcotic. I don’t look for reasons to cheat or make excuses to eat in an unhealthy way. I don’t ever want to touch processed sugar again. Every other diet I have done, I couldn’t wait to get to goal so I could add junk again….and I made up for lost time. Everything I eat now, I know is good for me and doing good things for my body. That is exciting. If I can overcome temptation in my hardest days, then how much easier will it be when my days get better?
That’s how I know I’m in it to win it!!!