The Mountain In My Life

He’ll show us the way he works so we can live the way we’re made. Let me say that again more slowly He’ll   show   us   the   way   He   works   so   we   can   live   the   way  we’re   made.

At 1:00 this morning God reminded me of this scripture. I had been reading in 2 Kings and then I picked up a book I was reading and the author mentioned this scripture and it just stopped me in my tracks and I kept repeating it over and over as if it were the first time I was seeing it! I must have sat on my couch in the silence for an hour applying that scripture to everything that was going on in my life the last 4 or 5 months.

So let me backtrack a little. I think the word for me has been “loss”. I’ve been suffering a lot with that…loss of my dog, loss of my dreams and visions, lost of physical well-being, loss of weight……..oh wait that’s a good one...there are more but I don’t want to get into the woe is me trap.

A friend of mine told me that I would find intimacy with God through my suffering. That I was facing a mountain (of God) that I would either speak to, climb up or go around. My first inclination was to speak to it and tell it to go away. Sigh…that didn’t happen. Pretty sure God wasn’t gonna let me desire to go around it. He definitely would let me make the choice but I have chosen to climb it instead!

Isaiah 2 1-5 The Message Isaiah got regarding Judah and Jerusalem

There’s a day coming
    when the mountain of God’s House
Will be The Mountain—
    solid, towering over all mountains.
All nations will river toward it,
    people from all over set out for it.
They’ll say, “Come,
    let’s climb God’s Mountain,
    go to the House of the God of Jacob.
He’ll show us the way he works
    so we can live the way we’re made.”

With everything I have been going through, I’ve been dealing with a little depression but fortunately not living there. For about a week now I have been feeling God prompting me to fast and pray for everything and so yesterday was my first day and it didn’t quite start off the way I thought it would.

When I woke up I woke from a very intense dream When these dreams come, they are so intense that I wake up with a stiff neck and migraine. My whole focus was on the pain I was in that I forgot the dream til later that night. Hubby and I were discussing some issues we are dealing with and the dream popped back into my head. I will prolly share that dream in the next blog. But what I realized is that God was already honoring my fast and speaking to me. I just love when He does that! Just confirms that I was supposed to do this fast and even in my pain I am still hearing His voice.

I ended up taking some muscle relaxers because my neck was so stiff I couldn’t move and even swallowing was hard. I sat down on the couch ready to read, pray and worship and fell asleep. I couldn’t even keep my eyes open if I wanted to. I slept til 5:00. I lost my whole day but I go days with only 4 or 5 hours of sleep, so I guess my body really needed the rest. That’s why He spoke at 1 in the morning hahahahah.

I’ve moved from regretting the mountain to putting on my hiking gear and wanting to climb it. I want Him to show me how He works so I can live the way I was made. Fasting and prayer give me joy in the journey!! I am seeking to hear more from my father and with every step, I am asking, “What can I learn from what’s going on all around me.” I’m praying for wisdom to speak life into all the things that have felt like death and that He would help me to share what I have learned to help other’s deal with their mountains or at least to encourage them to want to climb it!!