Why Diets have not been a “Lifestyle Change” For Me!

If you look up Diets on Google a ton of different diets show up and for the most part all of the ones I have tried are on that list except for Weigh Down. I have been successful on each one if you count the weight loss. But changing my lifestyle never happened.

Why? Because I couldn’t wait to go back to eating all the food I was denied, especially the desserts. I did attempt to do the maintenance plans for each but for some reason when I quit eating “their food”, I started gaining. Then in frustration, I would throw my hands up and go back to all my old eating habits. Sugar…sugar and more sugar.

I tried using that mentality that it was a lifestyle change because if I convinced myself of that, I would go to goal knowing I wasn’t going to gain again or so I thought! I have great discipline while dieting but once I reach goal, game over.

I would jump back on the diets but once I did it and reached a small goal and then gained again, it held no interest for me. I lacked the same excitement I had at the beginning. I think because I knew I did it, I conquered it, but it didn’t stick so subconsciously I was probably going to repeat my failure again. Now I never repeated the diet with that attitude in front of me. I always went in with a positive attitude but deep down I have become a professional diet yo yoer! Just keeping it real here.

Now I know we are trained to think that this is a lifestyle change because it really is speaking life into our situations but for me it is just a cycle repeated over and over again and I find I am a slave to the products that are being sold rather than to just eating real everyday food the right way.

To be perfectly honest, I am sick of counting points, measuring my food, eating other companies products, drinking nasty tasting shakes, eating bars that either want to make me gag or on the other hand make me want to eat more, drop down windows telling me which foods I can substitute, eating sugar substitutes that I am finding out later a really bad for you etc……. I have suffered from horrible stomach pains that lead me to the ER, gas, bloating, hair falling out, leg cramps, migraines, memory loss, horrible embarrassing sounds coming from my stomach, nausea and stinky breath. There’s prolly more but I can’t remember. <wink>

I FREAKIN WANT FOOD FREEDOM!!!!

Today the only measuring I am doing is when I am cooking from a menu. Yes, I am trying something new again but I don’t feel this is just a diet. I’m following a couple of guidelines but everything I do is using real food right from the grocery store minus sugar. I am adding some natural nutrients I have never tried before but I don’t have to if I don’t want to and it’s an added benefit, not a required one. I actually love Stevia now!

For the first time, I don’t feel enslaved to a diet plan or diet food. I’m not counting calories or carbs and eating fake food resembling real food. If I fall, four hours later I know I can jump right back on.

Now I am not dissing diets altogether. I’m dissing them for me hahahahahah. I know people who are successful after they have reached goal and are still doing thier plans with great success, not many but there are a few out there. And I applaud their efforts as they will most likely help another person along through example.

I also know that what works for one doesn’t always work for another. This whole blog is about MY journey not someone else’s and I’m just sharing with anyone who happens to stumble across it and likes reading what I write and to keep me accountable and recognizing all the good things that are happening to my body as well as weight loss.

Blessings from a trim and healthy mama wanna be!

The Things Diets Have TaughtMe!

So in my last blog, I shared how a little bit of every diet philosophy I’ve been on has now come together in this new healthy plan I am following.

One thing I learned that has always stayed with me but not been followed faithfully is to eat till you are satisfied, not till you are full. I hate that feeling of being full. Seriously if you think about it, if you eat till satisfied, you’ll actually be hungry for your next meal and not eating for comfort or pain. I learned to let my stomach tell me when it was hungry. Today I am eating every three to four hours but it’s usually my tummy that is saying when it wants to eat. I don’t find myself watching the clock until the next meal!

The second thing I learned was to eat the best parts first. An example: if you have a cinnamon roll everyone knows the center is the best part, right? But we usually save it for last. If we eat it first, then if we’re not hungry we’re not still stuffing to get to the center. We can stop when we feel satisfied.

I’m a weird eater….but I know there of some of you out there that will relate so don’t even laugh at me. I eat around my plate. In other words, I start with one food group, finish it and move on to the next. Eating this way gives us the mindset even if we are full, that we need to eat everything on our plate. Most of what I am eating now is combo foods that you eat all together and guess what… I don’t always finish it all!!! This is incredibly freeing to me.

The third thing I have learned that a great meal can be lean and green. You don’t have to have potatoes or rice to round off a meal. A meal can be truly satisfying with a nice chunk of protein, a veggie and a luscious fat! Real butter people, not that crappy margarine stuff!!

Now potatoes and rice aren’t bad, sweet potatoes and brown rice are better for you, but you don’t have to mix them with fats just a nice protein, veggie and carb and you can still lose weight and feel good. We don’t have to learn to hate food! Well except for sugar and dietary sugars. Sugar is poison for me but in its pure form like Stevia, I feel more in control. Oh and the things they are finding out that the “diet” sugars do to you, well let’s just say I wanna keep my mind.

The fourth thing I have learned is not to believe everything you read. For example, once I read that the first two bites of anything are where and when you get the best flavor. I talked myself into believing that for the sake of the diet I was on. But then I put it to the test…I don’t know about you but when I eat something that tastes good, every bite is full of the best flavor hahahahaha. That’s probably not the best thing to remember but it’s how I roll.

I haven’t had sugar for three weeks now. I’m not drinking diet soda anymore. I drink water or tea. I carry liquid stevia with me. Oh and yesterday I brought my own dressing when I went out to eat cause I don’t want to go back to that horrible sugar addiction I had.  Alcohol to an alcoholic is what sugar is to me. I sat at a meeting a week ago with desserts galore on the table in front of me and I didn’t even want to indulge. All I kept thinking was I have stevia now and I can go home and make something that tastes amazing and be healthy for me.

I’m sure I’ve picked up a few other things that I can’t remember at the moment but the things I’ve mentioned are the ones that stand out. I’m enjoying the learning process as I try new recipes and how some of the ingredients are actually helping my body! I’m wondering as I put wonderful things into my body if it will help with the symptoms of fibromyalgia that I suffer from every day. Wouldn’t that be something? One can certainly pray, hope and dream!!!

 

A New Journey Begins!

Three weeks ago I started the Trim Healthy Mama Plan and so far have lost 7 1/2 pounds. I actually wasn’t expecting to lose anything this first month as my body is healing from the bouncing around of other diet plans so this was a pleasant surprise. What I am surprised about is how great I feel about what I am doing!!

I have dieted on and off and on and off since 1978. Every new diet brought new challenges and weight loss. I loved challenges! I always got to my goal on each diet but never could get over the comfort that food brought. The last diet I went on I lost 13 pounds and the food was great but I just never felt good.

I am a pain eater. I suffered tremendous mental pain for 27 of those dieting years and add on physical pain from fibromyalgia, a bulging disc in my neck, and back pain that isn’t fibro related, gallbladder surgery, knee surgery, and you end up with a diet of comfort food, comfort food and more comfort food which created a sugar addiction.

Every diet I went on allowed me to get sugar in and sometimes I would have an all sugar day from points that allowed it to bars that were filled with it to brand named desserts that oozed of it. It was crazy!

At our small group the first night we met, the ladies were gathered around the counter talking about recipes. I went up and looked to see what they were doing and I couldn’t believe people lost weight eating those recipes. I was hooked and bought the book and two cookbooks. I had planned to go back to an old faithful diet that I kept going on an off of but was saved that night.

I’m not going to name the other diets but this plan and I do mean plan not diet that I am now following is awsamazing!!!! For the first time I feel and know what I am putting in my mouth and how it is helping my body! I am using only stevia that is pure as my sweetener, none of those other ones that they are always finding that are bad for you. I am trying things like whey protein, phylum flakes, glucomannan , mineral salt, pressed peanut flour, collagen and other amazing things I have never heard of. I’m reading about the health benefits  of each of these and everytime I use them mentally and physically I am feeling good!

I am finally sleeping through the night…still  a night owl and can’t fall asleep early but once I do, I am actually sleeping. It’s such a relief after so many years of insomnia and waking up exhausted. I am still dealing with physical pain but I’m actually letting my stomach tell me it’s hungry and using other methods like breathing and exercises to deal with the pain.

I’m not rushing to the scale every single day because I am more concerned about eating healthy and letting my body heal then weight loss but of course I am celebrating the losses. I think it’s pretty cool that I forget to weigh myself at the beginning of the week. That never happened before. I think I have a whole new mindset that is really looking at this as a lifetime of healthy living.

What’s even crazier is that there’s a little bit of every diet philosophy I have done in this one plan. I’ll try to share that next time.

 

Don’t Box Yourself In

Day three on my weight-loss journey was soooooooooooooo hard. I had such a bad headache all day and I just broke down and cried. The chronic pain I felt plus the changing of my lifestyle combined was tough. But I knew today, (Day 4) I would feel great. I read the word and tried to journal but I really didn’t hear anything. I think God was letting my brain rest. Today I was back in His word again and He gave me another portion of scripture to ponder.

I love the way God works. It’s never the same way with each person. Just look at the different ways He healed. He healed without even being where the sick person was. He laid hands on them. He healed by the faith of another for the person He was asked to heal, He healed by spitting on their eyes. He touched them and He healed by allowing someone to touch the hem of His garment.

Our God is so creative. He speaks to people differently as well. He speaks in an audible voice, through other people, His word, in visions and dreams, through our thoughts, supernaturally, through the Bible, through circumstances, etc….

As I was continuing my reading today in Jeremiah, the portion of scripture that jumped out at me was chapter 18:1-6

1 The word that came to Jeremiah from the Lord: “Arise, and go down to the potter’s house, and there I will let you hear my words.” So I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was working at his wheel. And the vessel he was making of clay was spoiled in the potter’s hand, and he reworked it into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to do.Then the word of the Lord came to me: “O house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter has done? declares the Lord. Behold, like the clay in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand, O house of Israel.

God spoke in various ways  to Jeremiah but this day He chose to use an allegory of the potter and the clay. He didn’t just want Jeremiah to hear the word, He wanted him to see it as well. He could of just spoke right to Him but He used what he saw to help Israel understand His plan.

In our weight-loss journey God can use any method to help us lose weight. And He will allow us to choose what works best for us. But whatever method we use, if we want His help, He is their to lend a hand. He uses many ways to speak to us: His word, friends, circumstances, books etc…We need to be careful that we don’t box ourselves in or others by thinking though, that there is only one right way to lose. We can be just as creative as He is.

 

Your Word Became My Meal

Weight loss is not fun, especially the first two weeks. For me the third day is the worse. Hunger headaches, nausea, insomnia, constant wanting to reach for something to eat drives me crazy. But I’m committed. I know what to expect and prepared myself for it. Ibuprofen or peppermint oil for healing of headaches. Play candy crush til my eyes can’t stay open any more for insomnia…I know I’m weird. Most people’s brains get stimulated; mine goes to sleep. Cupboards and refrigerator cleaned out so there’s nothing tempting me…except for those chocolate bars of Greg’s. Not my favorite though so I think I will be able to hang. Unfortunately I haven’t found anything to get rid of the nausea but I know this too shall pass.

The biggest successes for me in the past were staying in the word and keeping myself accountable. Contests sometimes if the payout was good. I have a hard time with groups (even though I am part of a really good nationwide one for the exact diet plan I am using) because everyone signs up but maybe one third participates and that usually last a couple of weeks. And there I am all alone with no one to encourage or to be encouraged by.

In my devotions yesterday Jeremiah says that God’s word became a joy to him and delight of his heart. The word became,become, becoming means to come, change, or grow to be (as specified). Joy doesn’t come naturally. Something has to happen to receive it.  In this case it was to find the word and then eat it. In weight loss, for me, I have to eat from the word to replace the hunger or head hunger I feel at any time. It’s the same when I fast so this month I will be getting a double portion.

Jeremiah 15:16
Your words were found and I ate them,
And Your words became a joy to me and the delight of my heart;
For I have been called by Your name,
O Lord God of hosts.

In order to find something you  need to search for it. And when you find it, you need to do something with it. In this case God’s words were found and Jeremiah feasted on them. Jeremiah listened to God and it’s the same with us. We are so fortunate to have many ways to hear from God but the biggest blessing is the Bible. We need to open it up, wait expectantly and then let his word become our meal.

So if you are on a weight loss plan like myself….let God’s word be your meal and you will find joy not only in His word but in the changes taking place both spiritually and physically. And who isn’t delighted when their body starts reshaping and the world of fashion begins to open up to us in new and different ways?!!!

Weight-loss Arggggggg

January 2nd and I’m back on my weight loss plan for the 100th time. Losing weight and keeping it off, mostly keeping it off  has been a huge struggle of mine that started when I hit my late 20’s. Believe it or not until then my nickname was “String bean.”

I hardly gained any weight with all my pregnancies( only gained 3 pounds with my last one) but I would gain like crazy after. While pregnant I had to eat like a diabetic and with the last two of four pregnancies, I had to give myself shots in my stomach and thighs. So once off I went crazy to make up for lost time. The problem isn’t the food: the problem is I’m a pain eater.

I have been in pain since I started getting migraines at the age of 17; I’m 56 now. I actually pulled a muscle in my back at age 10 playing kickball and had back pains ever since. As the years have gone on, the pain in my body has increased. Not one day goes by that I’m not in pain. Everything hurts from my toes to my head.I don’t talk much about it (until today). I just live one day at a time. But because I keep it to myself, I eat my pain.

I’ve decided to use Medifast as my weight loss plan and have a group I’m part of…well off and on hahahahaha. Medifast has always worked for me in the losing of weight but I struggle in the maintenance part. By March of last year I was down 80 + pounds and decided to change to another plan. Bad decision! I need to learn to stay the coarse. I have a love/hate relationship with Medifast.

I also have an accountability partner, who I will be in contact with every day. We will be encouraging each other with what God give us each day in our daily devotions and setting weekly goals.

One of my favorite scripture is Psalms 81:10 I am the Lord your God,
    who brought you up out of the land of Egypt.
    Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it.  I use it for everything from spiritual growth to weight loss.

Well, today as I was reading it again the Lord prompted me to read on…….oh ouch! It kind of smarted a bit.
11“But My people would not listen to My voice,
And Israel did not [consent to] obey Me.
12 “So I gave them up to the stubbornness of their heart,
To walk in [the path of] their own counsel.

He was showing me how I allow food to counsel me in my pain rather than relying on His word to comfort me. He says if I open my mouth wide, He will fill it. He will fill it with His word. I need to feed on His word rather than food. I need to allow Him to kiss me with the kisses of His word (SOS chapter 1) because what he gives me is better then what the world has to offer.

Ps 81 goes on to say, “ 
13“Oh, that My people would listen to Me,
That Israel (insert your own name) would walk in My ways!
14 “Then I would quickly subdue and humble their enemies
And turn My hand against their adversaries;

I’ve been relying on food for so long to ease my pain (really..it only adds to it). When my focus is on the Lord, overeating (my adversary, my enemy) is defeated. I always start my weight-loss strong and in the word but somewhere along the way…I lose myself and the patterns repeat. I need to keep listening even when I reach my goal because for me goal is just a beginning not an end. It’s just another beginning.

And finally
16“But I would feed Israel (insert your name) with the finest of the wheat;
And with honey from the rock I would satisfy you.”

That’s His promise! If I would listen and stay focused, He would be my comfort and even my healer. Wheat reminds me that he is the bread of life. John 6:35 Jesus replied to them, “I am the Bread of Life. The one who comes to Me will never be hungry, and the one who believes in Me [as Savior] will never be thirsty [for that one will be sustained spiritually].

Honey represents what is happy, pleasant, and delightful. Everything I need to cope and/feel better comes from Him, not man, not me.

So food you will no longer be my counselor! I’m moving on to better things!